Auto-Immune Disease/Chronic Pain
Body Image/Eating Issues
Breath/Life/I’m still here
What if Light itself is a miracle? What if all of everything is really a miracle?
Sometimes I get to thinking I have so many struggles, but to write them down makes them graspable. I can narrow them down better that way. Maybe sometimes the struggles list changes. It can shrink or grow. But the Miracles list is at least, I think, consistent. The felt presence of miracles might wax and wane, but once they’ve made the list I think they are always there. Miracles never diminish or go away. And maybe struggles will always exist to some degree just because I am human, but when I run those struggles through the lens of a miracle that is always there to save me, I can trust they will be manageable. To list it out takes away the emotion that can sometimes run away with my heart-my grounding and stability in this world.
I get thrown into tailspins, but today I will keep coming back to how many incredible crashes I have made it through. If I focus on how the story has always eventually resolved, maybe I can eventually carry on from the end and skip the panic part.
There are two ways to live: you can live as if nothing is a miracle; you can live as if everything is a miracle.